Sunday, June 20, 2010

Day 75

Good day everyone. We as fathers days go, this one was pretty average. The good things about it were this. This morning, erin hadnt been able to sleep for some reason, so she was still awake when I got home. She had warmed up coffee cake for us. Then we both went to bed. A few hours later, Zoe was constantly yelling "DADDA! Daddy! DADDA!" while knocking on the inside of her bedroom door. I of course, kept thinking to myself "why does she always yell Dadda from her room? She never yells momma."

Eventually Erin got up and went downstairs with her. For fathers day, Erin and Zoe both gave me cards and they got me sleep shorts. I am a huge fan of sleep 'pants', and so they thougth it'd be something new that I would like. I think they are very confortable. I definitely prefer sleep pants to shorts, but I do like the shorts. It could be for the same reason that I prefer to stick with the long sleeve version of my work uniform, when I have seen others wearing short sleeves. I don't know what it is. I think it's because I feel more secure with myself when I am covered. With short sleeves I tend to want to fold my arms across my chest or stand nervously. Not sure what it is about it.

So tonight I will keep it short. I called my father to wish him happy father's day. We chatted for a few minutes about everything. I told him to let me know when he knows a definite date whenever they are moving to oklahoma and that Erin and I would probably put teagan up in boarding and maybe come down and spend a day (and night) at their house. Usually we quite often just stop by for part of days. It'd be nice to go down there and spend the day, stay the night, and then come back the following day. It's the least we can do before they move.

So in closing, I'm not sure if I'm going to sleep right away tomorrow morning. I have a 10AM appointment with my mechanic to figure out what is going on with the new gas tank they installed, and why I'm not getting fuel to my engine from that tank. I also plan to stop by wal mart and have them run a check on my battery. The reason is because lately when I start the truck, it sounds like it's struggling to turn over. So I have been paying close attention and I notice if I drive a couple miles, and then turn it off, when I turn it back on it sounds like it is turning over stronger, which leads me to believe that maybe I should replace the battery before it dies on me and I'm stranded.

So who knows, if Erin is working tomorrow morning then maybe I will get Zoe up early, so that then later in the morning after the truck's been fixed, I can come back, put Zoe down for a nap, and crash myself, and within a few hours Erin should be getting off work. Maybe I will grab the stroller and stop by pizza ranch like I had planned to do yesterday, hereby dropping off the truck with her, and having Zoe ride in the stroller while we walked back home, but Erin came home early from work so I ended up picking her up, ordering a pizza, potato wedges, and chicken fries at the drive up window instead of eating inside. The great thing about tomorrow is that I am off tomorrow and tuesday. Since I'm still technically the only guard here for about another week at the very least, when they have said "Hey we're going to have jeff or this other flex guy work these days to give you a break," I've been calling and confirming the day before just to make sure. I don't want to end up not showing up thinking I'm off and they are expecting me here.

So anyway, I will call that it for tonight. Another positive thing today is for father's day dinner we are having our awesome brisket! I can't wait! Also, on a different positive note, Erin finished her math class she was on. She was afraid she was going to fail and have to retake. She hates math with a passion and has had to take 3 math classes in a row. Well I first told her she should voice her concerns to her teacher and maybe she can help so she can pass. The teacher simply said that this week there would be a lot of points possible and to do her best. Well Erin called me tonight all excited saying that she got perfect points on some of the assignments, and ended up passing the class with a C. I knew she could do it! ;) Anyway, talk to you all again soon!

Thanks for being here.

CB

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Day 74

What a day, what a day! So, my hands are scraped and cut up pretty bad. This morning, using my haynes manual, I tried to install the replacement window myself in my passenger side of my truck. Taking apart the door and getting to where the window is located was easy.

The rest of it was not so much. It only took me 10-15 minutes to get the door taken apart. I spent an hour and a half trying to figure out how the window pane is supposed to go into both sides of the track. I could get it in one, but then it was just past the other side, and I know there is a way to do it. After messing with it for a while, and pulling my hand out only to find it covered in blood because of a cut on my knuckle, I gave up and told myself I would try to see how flexible it is, and see if I can bend the glass, even if just a hair. That's all I needed, was just a fraction of an inch in order for it to go. Well, it apparently didn't like that, because once again, pieces of safety glass went flying everywhere as it exploded in my face.

Needless to say, some swear words were yelled out loud, people that were walking by stopped and stared for a moment until I turned and went into the house, etc. When I came into the bedroom, Erin was getting ready for work, and I was mumbling swear words to myself. She was like "What happened?" I was like "I f**king broke the other glass too." So, this morning before i got off, when I was unlocking, I met a guy that recommended this place called A to Z salvage. He said they have some ford truck doors still with the windows. He said they would even install it for me for like $20.00. So, at 9 when they opened, I called them and talked to them. On the phone, he had me convinced because of the good deal.

When I showed up, this place was a single lot, used to be a convenient store or something a while back, but now had several junker cars sitting around. They had a garage, and that was where they did work on the cars. I think had he been able to do it right there, I would have gone with it and let him install it. But he said "It'll probably be about 3 or 4 hours. Can you leave it here and come back later?" I was like "not too easily. It's our only mode of transportation right now." But, I said "Sure, I brought my daughter's stroller and so we should be able to leave it here for ya." But I couldn't shake a feeling. Something inside me screaming "Dont do it!" I stood there, Zoe in the stroller, looking from my truck, back to where these guys were sitting in some kind of office just bullshitting while they had a car that was in the garage that they were doing some kind of work on for a customer. I then decided, and took Zoe out of the stroller, strapped her back into her car seat, got in the truck and drove off. I didn't say a word to the guy's running this mini-salvage garage.

Will I try there again? I'm not sure. I'm kind of doubting it. From what I'm told, there is a bigger salvage yard in DeWitt. I'm familiar with it because it is located right by where the schwans depo is located. I passed it every day when I went to work, and then again when I left to come home. So, maybe I will go through them. I don't think I would have a problem with just buying 'parts' from the A to Z auto here, but the idea of leaving my truck there and coming back later, no. I would be afraid that later I would break down and find out that I was missing parts.

So, as I was driving back from the A to Z salvage, my mind was racing. a few thoughts at once. 1) "i should have left the truck there. I'm not going to get the window fixed for a while now." 2) "Damn I'm so stressed about this." Then when I got home, it was like a switch was flipped. I had decided what I was going to do. I decided "ok, first I will put the door back together. Then I will sweap up the pile of broken safety glass. Then Zoe and I will go to Jewel and buy clear heavy duty tape so I can tape over the window opening so that it isn't just a wide open window anymore currently, plus I am running low on deodorant so I will grab that also. Then we will go up to pizza ranch and eat, and will hopefully be back here just around noon. I will lay Zoe down and then crash myself."

I hadn't slept yet at that point. It was roughly about 11 oclock. I went inside and grabbed a drink because I got pretty hot by the time I put the door back together. I locked the door, closed it, said "Ok Zo Zo lets go!" She was like "Kay!" I got to the truck and thought "where are my keys? oh shit..." I didn't know for sure, but I feared that I had taken them inside and set them down when I got a drink. I went and checked and of course the door was locked. I tried a few windows but the security clip was up which only allows them to open a few inches. I tried a few more and I found one that wasn't. I don't know what we would have done if we couldn't get in. I didn't know if Erin had her house key. If she didn't, and I could'nt get in, we were screwed.

Finally I found a window that wasn't securely closed. I raised it up as high as I could. The window opening was about 3 feet higher than me. I braced myself, jumped, and pulled myself into the house. When I landed on the floor, I groaned for a minute because it hurt like hell to squeeze in, and also because of the effort I used in order to make sure I didn't just fall through the window opening onto my face on the floor. Of course, the keys were right where I had filled my glass with lemonade.

So I loaded Zoe up in her car seat, and we drove to jewel. Just after I got there, erin texted me. It was probably about 11:30 by this point. She said she hadn't felt well and they were sending her home. I told her how I had planned to eat up there, but would grab a frozen pizza instead. She told me to just grab what I needed and then we could order at the drive up window at pizza ranch. So we did. While waiting for the order, the tiredness was really hitting me. She wanted to go across the street to get some other grocery essentials, but I was dozing off as we were sitting there waiting, so we just headed home after we got the order.

I barely was able to finish eating because while I was eating, my eye lids were drooping. After I finished, I threw my uniform stuff in the dryer, grabbed Zoe and headed upstairs. Layed her down for a nap, then changed into my sleep pants, prayed, and climbed into bed myself. As I prayed, I knew it would not even be minutes till I fell asleep. I layed my head down on the pillow and it felt like a snap of the finger, and it was lights out. I had set my alarm for 5:30. At 3:30, I was up out of bed for some reason. I didn't remember what I had dreamed before that, but for some reason I jumped up out of bed and ran out into the hall way. After using the restroom, I convinced myself to go back to bed. 5:30, my alarm was going off. I hit snooze, and then next thing I know it was 5:50. I jumped up and got dressed for work.

After I got to work, I went out to the truck for about 20 minutes and I completely taped over the open window. I love the clear tape for that purpose. It's really clear so you can still see through it as if it's a normal window. But at the same time it keeps out the elements as best they can. Last night it downpoured and the inside of the truck got soaked. So, someday soon hopefully the window will be replaced, and then I will never ever mess with them again! EVER!

So I think for tonight I will call that it. I will write more for you all tomorrow.

Thanks for being here.

CB

Friday, June 18, 2010

Day 73

Good day everyone. You ever have one of those moments where you were trying to do something, thinking that you were making it better, then something got broken and you were like "DANGIT!" Well I did today. I went back to the mechanic that installed my new gas tank because I'm not getting enough fuel from the tank delivered to my engine. I'm scheduled to see him monday morning at 10 AM to get the air conditioning charged, but money wise I'm not sure if i will get it done. I want to have it charged, but at the same time it's $140.00 that I really don't want to spend. Rather, its $140.00 that would be of better use being applied to a bill or whatever. It's reality. It sucks, but it is reality.

On my way back home, I thought about how the mechanic told me that if I put some kind of lubricating spray on the window track in my truck, that my windows will roll up and down easier. My drivers side has been good, but my passenger side has issues. If you roll the window down, you have to use your hand to help it back up. So I went to auto zone and bought a liquid wrench lubricant. I went home and sprayed it in the window tracks of both windows. The drivers side window went even more smoothly. The passenger side went up and down with ease, but the problem was when I let it go all the way down. Then it didn't want to come back up until I managed to get it up a few inches.

Well I let it go all the way down once, and managed to work it back up. Then I sprayed some more and let it go all the way down again. This time I was trying to get it to come back up, but could only get a small grip on the very edge. Suddenly the entire window burst into a million little pieces. I was like "SON OF A ****!" I even stood there in shock looking at the many pieces of broken glass wondering how I had screwed up. Thinking to myself "Damnit. Damnit. Damnit. I should have just dropped the truck off at Erin's work so she would have it, I then should have walked home and crashed, but nooooooooooooooooooooooo. I had to fix the damn window, which is now no longer ATALL!" Yes I know my intention was good, to make it work more efficiently, but hey, it backfired.

Oh well, I guess it's the thought that counts eh? right. yeah. Course. So anyway, I went to meet erin at work for lunch, but it was one of the days when she was there till 2 or later. She's always scheduled till 2, but they like to send her home early a lot. It seems the days I try to meet her for lunch, they keep her there late, so then I'm sitting there for a while with mixed feelings. 1 feeling is happy because she is working the full shift, full pay, etc. the other feeling is bordom because here i am taking a lot more time to eat than I normally would, just because I'm trying to wait. So today at 2, I figured she was still going to be a little while, and so I told her boss to let her know I was going to go pick Zoe up from daycare and come right back. On my way there, I stopped at a place called Bob's Auto Shop. I talked to him earlier about whether or not he had any used windows from older ford vehicles. Told him I was looking for one for a 1993 ford f250 and he said he had one.

Backtracking a bit, before I called Bob, I called these places like safelite, and other glass repair and replacement companies. They all quoted me $205.00 to replace the glass. I asked how much the glass was and that I would try to install it myself. They said "The installation is only $30.00 . The rest of the cost is the new glass." I was like "SHIT!" So then I called bob.

So moving on. Bob said he had one from a 1989 Ford F150 passenger side door. I asked how much and he told me $40.00. I told him I would be down there shortly to pick it up. So on the way to pick up Zoe, I stopped by, paid the man and picked up the glass. Maybe it's the worry wort in me because I looked at the glass and said "will that fit? It looks too big." He was like "It will. It came out of a 1999 ford f150 and will fit in the other models as well." So i paid him and picked it up, sticking it in the back seat.

I asked the place charging $205 if they would put it in for me if I had the glass myself and they said because of warranty they couldnt. Heh. I don't freaking care about window warranty! I just wanted it installed! GEESH! Wasn't the news I was hoping for. I was hoping I'd buy the new window for $40.00, take it over to this place and pay $25.00 to have it installed. Easy peasy, but it turned out not to be that way.

Then to top that all off! Mother nature today decided it was monsoon day! There have already been a few storms, and not just average rain storms. we're talking heavy rains, lightning, thunder, high winds, the works! So naturally, the passenger seat has gotten a little wet.

So in closing, the plan some time tomorrow is, one way or another, getting that window installed! I hate the insecurity of having a window missing. Too many things can happen. Stuff stolen, water in the truck, etc. Still not much of a word about Erin's Escape, but I believe the plan is for him to try to get the transmission rebuilt by next friday. I guess Erin and her mom believe it will be the best for us to be using the escape and not the truck when we go to bring Lex back home. They under estimate the reliability and dependability of the big old ford. ;) jk. So anyway I will call that it for tonight. I will write more for you all tomorrow.

Thanks for being here.

CB

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Day 72

Good day everyone. Today I finally got the major things on the truck fixed. The big thing was the tail pipe. A few months back, it had come seperated from the catalytic converter. The guy said he could wheld it back on there securely, but then realized that apparently my rear gas tank had a small leak. He said that if he did one, he would have to do the other because of the dangers of gas vapers.

So shortly after that, I went through auto zone and ordered a replacement gas tank for my truck. It had been in the garage for the past few months, still in the box it was delivered to me in. So the overtime pay was amazing. 2.5 times what I normally would make on a paycheck. Payed a few bills, and a few days ago I had called this mechanic shop and had them put me in the book for today. Told them I was getting payed today and that I wanted to get the new tank put on and the tail pipe secured to the catalytic converter.

For both of those, they charged us $250.00, which isn't too bad at all. The owner of the shop even drove me home when I dropped off the truck, and then when he called and said he was done, he offered to come out and pick me up so I could go pick up the truck. We were going to have them charge my A/C, but apparently because it's a 93, it still has the old type of cooling system in it. They would need to convert it so that it could use the new type of coolant. They said it would cost us $110.00 originally, but then when he called to say that it was done, he said the ac wasn't completed because of the fact of it being the old system, and that converting it would make it $130.00 instead of $110.00, and that they could take care of that for me the beginning of next week. I'm trying to find out if I can get in monday, because 1) I think I will be off monday and tuesday (according to my bosses with securitas), and 2) I have the appointment tuesday morning in Iowa City (which is an hour drive from here), in order to get checked out by the Veteran Affairs Benefits medical clinic.

That day I also start class officially, so I'm glad that I should have those two days off. It's funny. I remember knowing co-workers with schwans, or other jobs, who complained because of their work schedule, saying they wished they had different days off, etc, and complain and complain. Where as, I worked almost a month straight, no days off, maybe a few hours free time between getting out of bed and coming to work again, for 25 days. I had one day off after about 13 days straight, and then I went another 12 days and they gave me monday, tuesday and wednesday off this week. With those 3 days off, the pay period officially ends tonight at 11:59, so I am still going to get paid for 48 hours this week. Next week with only monday and tuesday off I will get 60 hours.

So I was asking the owner about the AC, and about switching it over, etc, and he was telling me that a 92 ford truck he did some work on, including charging the ac, switching it over to the newer coolant and stuff like that, and that that was 4 years ago and the truck is still charged with the AC running ice cold. It makes me feel good to see the little things I have done to the truck. Eventually, the hand full of tasks I want to do will be complete and the truck will be in really good shape. It's in pretty good shape right now. A lot of the things it still has to be done are minor. Window motor being weak (either that or I need to lubricate the window. I heard that if the window track is really dry then it will not want to roll down or up very easily. So that will be my first test, to see if I lubricate the track, if the window problems will be fixed.)

Then my drivers side seat doesn't have a working mechanism for leaning forward and back. I have to occasionally lean forward and make sure the lever is pushed securely down. When I was driving back from the town we bought the truck in, the seat suddenly leaned back a few times. It scared the crap out of me the first time it did it. lol. But, from my understanding, the easiest way to fix it would be to find an old ford f250 and get the drivers seat out of it. I believe there are just 4 bolts holding the seat in place, and so it sounds like a fairly easy fix.

However, the owner today when I showed him the seat and asked him what he thought, he said that ford might be able to order that mechanism and it may be possible to change it out and keep the original seat. If that is possible, then keeping things as much original as possible is always the best thing to do.

So, on my way back from the mechanic shop, I went by Circle K and filled up both gas tanks, plus grabbed some snacks and one of the different flavors of mountain dew. This one was rasberry and citris I believe. All and all, it wasn't a cheap visit, but I'm wondering if my gas tank I put on is a few gallons bigger than the older one. I was under the impression that the original tanks were both 15 gallons. When I filled up the new tank, I thought it was 18 gallons *which I'm certain it said when I bought it*, but when I filled it up, it went to 19.12 gallons.

Last night since Erin's birthday is coming up and I don't know how money will be then, so she can order books for her kindle or whatever she wants to do, I ordered her an instant gift card on Amazon for $40.00. Instant because it emailed to her within a few minutes. She was like "O_O $40.00?" I was like "Yup! I figured you could put it to good use." I guess she didn't expect that much, but was happily surprised." I said "That way on her birthday maybe we could try to plan ahead and we all go out to eat some place special for her birth day.

So in closing, we still have not decided anything yet as far as Erin's car and her transmission. The guy said he was going to try to get to it today as far as checking out the engine and making sure there were no other potentially huge problems that might happen down the road, but he was busy today and didn't get to it. So hopefully he will get to it tomorrow. Hopefully next week at the latest, I'm hoping we have a plan both as far as getting him to go ahead and rebuild the transmission or whatever, and a plan as far as paying for it. I know Erin and I are both anxious for her to have her car back. Life is just so much easier when we both have our own independent modes of transportation to get ourselves around whenever we need it. At least we have one vehicle that is in good shape and so we are thankful for that, but we are still looking forward to getting the escape back.

So I think for tonight, I will call that it. I will write more for you all tomorrow.

thanks for being here.

CB

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Day 71

Good evening everyone. Twas another enjoyable day off. I was a bit busier during parts of it than I had been the last few days. I dropped Erin off at work, and then fell back asleep. She normally would work until 1:30 or 2. She went to work at 9, and by 11 they said she was free to go. So she called me, and told me she was getting done, was going to eat, and then would be ready to head out. I fell back asleep. Next thing I know, I got a message saying she was going to walk. I threw on some shoes and ran out to the truck. I think met her half way between the house and her work.

When I got her home, it was 12PM. She went to bed. I got Zoe up, and we watched a few seeker episodes. Then I put on Elmo for Zoe while I went into the kitchen and did some cleaning. I was in there for a while. While I was cleaning, I put 5 eggs in water to boil. Got the kitchen looking much better, and by this point Erin was getting back up. I asked her as I was making a large salad for myself if she wanted 2 hard boiled eggs by them selves or if she wanted a salad too. She said she'd like a salad. So I made 2 salads, with shredded cheese, croutons, bacon bits, and I cut up the hard boiled eggs in both salads. When salads are done like that, it makes the salads so enjoyable compared to when you just do a plain salad with dressing and what not.

Jazzing up the salads like that makes it easy for me to eat healthier, and still feel full. So Erin and I watched a few more seeker episodes, and then she went outside to cut lettuce leafs from the garden. We have a couple of romain lettuce plants outside and they all are doing really well. They had lots of leafs on them. I'm looking forward to having fresh brocoli. Some day when we make our garden much bigger I want to do zuccini and squash. If we could do it big enough, I would love to have a row of corn and okra. :)

When she got that done, it was roughly about 8PM. It was starting to get dark, but wasn't dark yet. I figured if I hurried I could get the lawn done. So I did. When I finished, it was almost completely dark. Thankfully when I did the last stretch of the grass it was light enough so I could see. Then tonight I grilled italian style sausage links and pineapple brats for dinner. I grilled 2 hotdogs stuffed with cheese for Zoe, and then I made boxed scallopped potatos with cheese. It was good. The funny thing about the sausages was that I was certain that when I ordered those at Hyvee, I'm certain it said "Italian Style Brats." Maybe it did and he gave me the wrong one. So I thought I had 2 italian brats and 2 pineapple brats, but nope, just 2 pineapple brats, and 2 italian style sausage links.

I've been much more tired today. When erin went to bed at noon after getting off work, I was tired and had a headache. So I took 2 excedrine. I noticed that after 2 episodes of seeker, i noticed the headache was gone and I felt nice and awake. I would have no problem with staying up for a while because Erin doesn't have to work tomorrow, so we can sleep in, but I have an appointment to drop the truck off to get the tail pipe whelded back onto the catalytic converter, and the new gas tank put on. I'm debating about asking them if they do air-conditioner charging too. If they do and it's cheap, then maybe I will get that done too. I'm not sure. I know that eventually needs to get done, but when I get that done I will need to buy belts and replace a few because whenever I run the air conditioner *even though currently it doesn't cool too much*, sometimes it squeels a bit. That's a sign that a belt is worn.

In closing, it has been a couple of good days off. Spent a lot of time together, and just been trying to relax. Tomorrow I am off until 6PM and then I head back to work. I believe I have monday and tuesday off, but we will see. It sounds like my bosses at securitas didn't have a problem with my idea for what I think the schedule should be when the new guard comes over to replace randy. So I will call that it for tonight. I will write more for you all tomorrow.

Thanks for being here.

CB

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Day 70

Good evening everyone. Yes I admit, I did not post last night. I meant to, and then I completely forgot until 12:05AM the following morning, and so it wouldn't have posted for Monday. So today is day #2 of my 3 days off from work. It feels great. I am for the most part doing what I had planned to do, which was doing a whole lot of nothing. We've gone out and taken care of some things, but otherwise we have been chilling out.

We've watched seeker episodes, slider episodes, and we watched episode 1 of series 1 of Doctor Who. I think Erin fell asleep at the beginning, so we might end up re-watching it. You could say I'm so used to being at work everyday, that when it got be just after 6PM I would look at the clock and think about it and be like "hey look, I'm late for work!" It just felt really weird to be here at home when normally I was going to be at work. I guess that's a sign that I definitely was in need of some days off. What's great is even though I have a total of 3 days off this week, it is almost like 3 and 1/2 because I don't work until 6 on Thursday. So it feels nice to know I still have an entire day off and then some left.

So, I do not recall if I wrote about the transmission on Erin's ford escape. Well, it looks like it is going to cost us $1,900 at a minimum for the transmission. We can put a new one in for over $4,000. Or we could rebuild the current transmission for $1900. There is one other option. We can try to find a junker ford escape that has been put into a salvage yard and see if we can get a used transmission, which I would have to go pick up with my truck, and then our mechanic would charge us around $500.00 to put it in. That is the cheapest way, but there is no warranty for that one. If we have him rebuild our current transmission, then he would guarantee it for 12,000 miles or 1 year.

So the one we'd prefer would be to rebuild the transmission. We still have no idea where the money will come from, but to be honest, I'm not stressing about it for some reason. It falls in the worries and cares area of our life, and those are things I am continually giving to God every time I drop and pray. Thankfully He keeps the stress lifted from my shoulders, so although I know what the worries are, it's ok because I know things will work out.

So today, since I'm expecting a really good check this week, and we had planned on doing some work to both cars, I called master auto care, where i had taken my truck to ask them about their labor costs for welding my tailpipe back onto the catalytic converter. So today I called them and first asked them what they would charge me to switch out the tank that has a drip leak for the brand new tank i have had stored here in the garage for a few months, and to weld the tail pipe onto the cat converter. They told me, and then I asked "do you have any openings on thursday?" and they said they could get it in any time. I said "if I dropped it off first thing, would you be able to have it done and ready by some time in the afternoon?" They were like "oh yeah, definitely. Probably by 2." Then I mentioned that I wanted to go ahead and get on the books for thursday morning, and that it is our only mode of transportation currently and I will figure out how to get there and back." He was like "when you get it up here, i will give ya a lift." So, some time thursday we will have the truck in much better working order than before.

So in closing, enjoying the days off, spending lots of time together as a family, relaxing a lot trying to make up for the lack of time this past month while working, etc. So anyway, I think I will call that it for tonight. I will write more for you tomorrow.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Day 69

Welcome to day 69. Today I tried to get to bed as quickly as I could. I think I was asleep by 6:45, and by 12:30, we were all up. It felt good to be up at that time, because I apparently slept really deeply, so I felt nice and rested. So today, we watched a few Seeker episodes. I wanted to see which episodes Mistress Denna was in, and how she was portrayed. I know I had seen them, but of course, I couldn't remember. The movie so did not do the book justice. Richard being tortured and "broken" to the point where he was doing as Mistress Denna commanded him to, in the series it went like this. He was captured, he got tortured, then it went to when he killed Denna, escaped, etc. But in the book, he goes through a long time of torture, much more detail, gets to where any time he speaks to her he has been trained to include "Mistress Denna" in whatever he says. For instance, when he first got there, he woke up on the dungeon floor, and saw her sitting in a chair near by. He said "where are your men?"

She said "Stand right over here beside me." He came over and stood. She put on her gloves which had armor on them or whatever, and then whipped around, backhanding him and splitting his lip. She was like "I told you, you will call me mistress, or mistress Denna. Now beg for my forgiveness." He was like "I'm sorry Mistress Denna. Please forgive me Mistress Denna." She was like "That's better. Now ask me correctly." "Mistress Denna where are your men?"

I guess that's how it is with books compared to the film versions is when reading the books, on scenes like that, I couldn't put it down. I was invisioning him in front of her, powerless because she had control of his magic, and seeing how slowly, against his will, mainly because he decided he would do anything to lesson the amount of pain he received, he submitted to her. But in the film, it's like "here" and then "gone", before you really see anything.

So anyway. Today before work, I called one of the bosses at Securitas and asked him if I was definitely going to be off Monday and Tuesday. I said I was just trying to confirm so that I knew for sure. He said "Yup, We will have jeff over there monday and tuesday, and I think we will try to give you wednesday off as well." I was like "Wednesday too?" "Yeah, you're way over on hours already, and you've worked so much, if we can, I think you should be able to take 3 days off. Will do ya good to be off for a change." I was like "I don't mind working the hours, but if that be the case then I'm all for an extra day off as well." Then when I got to work, I looked at the sign in sheet to determine how many hours I am at currently. Our pay week goes through thursday at 11:59PM. As of tomorrow morning, I will be at 42 hours worked so far this week already. If they give me monday, tuesday, and wednesday off, and I come in and work thursday evening, I will have 6 more hours on this pay week ending me at 48 hours for the week. I guess the fact that I will be over 40 hours already before having some days off makes it alright. I will admit. For some reason when he told me I might actually have 3 days off, I actually was sad momentarily.

It's weird. I guess the problem is, I have been working SOOOO much, that the idea of actually being off for 2 or 3 days just makes me feel wierd, which is why I wanted to confirm that i would be over 40 hours anyway. When I mentioned it to melissa, she was like "If you're over 40 hours then you're good and should just enjoy the days off." I said "Yeah, that's how I was trying to think about it."

So in closing, I'm just amazed at how books can take you to a whole other world. Some times the world you're in when you're in a book seems like something that you would only dream about. I notice I have some times wondered what it would be like to actually live in a world like that. It's just my mind working over time of course, but still the thought is there. So, for now I will call that it. I will write more for you all tomorrow.

Thanks for being here.

CB