Day 17

Hello everybody. Today was bit odd. I got home just after 6 am just like I normally do. I put on episode #2 of Hercules season 1. I had watched episode #1 Thursday morning; while waiting for Lex to get dressed and get her stuff together for school. By 6 am, I'm pretty tired and have to do something to keep my mind occupied, otherwise I will very easily fall asleep while relaxing in the recliner.

So this morning, I got online and emailed my instructor. Basically I said that I plan to hopefully catch up from where I'm at, by monday. She wrote back saying that if I was able to come up to the school, I could meet with her and she could help me. I told her that I would love to, and that I will when I get time, but that things have been so hectic with work that my days are off. She understood, and said she would see me Monday. The reason I feel so far behind is, last Wednesday, we were told about the final paper we will be doing for the semester. It is an arguementative paper. I may have already written about this subject. Well anyway, by Monday, the new syllabus that just came out over the weekend, which I was not able to access till Monday said we needed to bring 2 checked out books on our subject. Panicking, I looked ahead to Wednesday and then Today, knowing what my schedule has been like lately. Of course, after the 2 books due Monday *which I missed that day*, Wednesday we needed 2 articles that day.

The reason why I have been panicking is because when we received the assignment, I thought "Cool, I can research this, and do a good paper." Then I thought "Damn! I have to read 2 books within a short time frame, and find 2 articles, all while looking info up and trying to get my draft together? Holy ****!" I guess it doesn't take a lot to overwhelm me these days. I guess that is the sign that the end of the semester is approaching. This is the first time all semester that I have felt overloaded with things to do for the ONE class. I can understand when I'm taking 2 or more classes online starting in June that I might feel overloaded at times. But with just English? Wow. But I'm sure it is just because I missed 3 days because of schedule conflicts and what not, that I then looked at everything I needed to do going "OMG!"

So, back to today. Sent Lex off to the bus stop by 7:35. Headed upstairs, knelt in prayer, once again working to continue giving all my worries, cares, and stresses to God. Then climbed into bed. Not quite two hours later, Zoe had gotten up, was upset, and had actually succeeded in getting her bedroom door open. She walked right up to my side, screaming, and yelling DADDA!" I was like "oh my gosh...." You know how you feel when you have barely slept, you're dead tired, but you are forced awake, kinda as though you are a zombie? That was me. I couldn't tell my body to stand up for a few minutes, by then, Zoe had went downstairs, even with me yelling "ZOE! Get back up here right now! ZOE!" To which she was like "Noooooo! Uh-uh!" So after a few minutes, I caught up with her, brought her back upstairs, changed her diaper, changed her clothes, and went downstairs with her. I put the gate up on the landing so she couldn't leave the TV room, and I put on the wiggles.

Then while she was watching that, I grabbed my Fire Fighter blanket from when I was in the Air Force, and curled up on the recliner. I figured I would fall asleep, and I actually didn't mind the idea. Next thing I know, I look up and Wiggles is almost over. So I then put on Elmo's Adventure in Grouchland. This time I pulled Zoe up with me on the recliner, and with her lounging on me, I fell asleep again. I woke up hearing the credits to that, and put on a different wiggles movie. Half way into that one, Zoe still lounging on me, I woke up to Erin's voice from upstairs. She was calling for me to come upstairs, and so I reluctantly dragged myself out of the comfy recliner and went upstairs.

I had wondered why Erin didn't get up with Zoe when she had gotten up and woke me up, but had not been able to ask yet. Apparently Erin had been up and down with Zoe all night for some reason. Zoe hasn't been feeling well and so she was not sleeping well. When I got upstairs, Erin had successfully switched out the old original bed that was in Zoe's room for the little girl twin bed that my parents had given us for her with a bedroom set. She said she knew I was asleep downstairs when she tried to call down there and didn't get a response. Normally I'm not one to be asleep while watching shows. I doze off, but not completely gone, no longer with us type of sleep. This morning though, that was the case.

I would have gone back to bed when Erin was up, but today we had plans to pick up a king size bed to replace the one we had in our room. Our king actually was 2 twin beds put side by side with a king size head board. So, now we have an actual king, which is nice. It'll take some getting used to because we are so used to there being a crack between my side and hers. Now we are on 1 single bed. It'll be really nice, it is just new. The mattress itself is a pillow top and so it is pretty comfortable. We moved out the twin box springs and mattresses, and moved the king mattress and the box springs for it up from the bed of the truck. Then we put Zoe down for a nap, told Ally to please work on making sure her room was picked up, and we layed down. Erin got up after just a little while, because she was going to go to Wally World to pick some things up, and then she was going to pick up some Taco Bell for dinner for us. I stayed home with my alarm set for just after 7 Oclock. I don't know how much sleep I have had today, but oddly I'm pretty awake and alert. THANK GOD FOR MT DEW! ;)

So, one thing interesting happenned last night. You could say I probably scored brownie points with the ER nurses. Well 1 thing was I must have walked out about 4 times with the same nurse escorting her to her car. There was a rapist running around Clinton, and so now we make sure the nurses, staff, leaving patients, and families can ask us to walk outside with them to make sure nothing happens to them. I have no problem doing it. In fact, I enjoy being of use to them. Well last night there were 2 full cakes down in the little kitchen area that usually has pre-made meals put in the fridge for overnight staff. It was from a retirement ceremony, and was free to everyone. I mentioned it upstairs and the ER nurses seemed to have no idea. Later I took one of the cakes, plus a stack of plates and forks upstairs and dropped it off in the ER. They were thrilled to death with excitement. I don't think I have ever gotten that positive of a reaction out of them. So, needless to say things are going well with the job. ;)

In closing tonight's entry, tomorrow morning is Ally's 2nd soccer game. Ally tonight was saying that she wants her team to beat the 2 goals that they scored last game. I was like "Well Lex, if you and your team mates will pass ahead of eachother, and shoot hard at the goal when you get to the first white line like your coach and I taught you at practice, I think you could score a lot more than 2! ;)" It's the truth! keeping forward momentum, plus taking shots on goal will increase their scoring chances. It's not about winning, but if they want to score, then these will be the things they do. I think they will do well, if they all remember what they practiced and use it during the game. The girls on her team all have the ability to kick the ball really hard, and if they kick it hard as they can at the goal, the goalie might block some but not all of them. So, I'm anxious to see how they do! The funny thing is, I was so focused not on their score but on their playing and having fun that when Ally said 2 goals tonight, I said "2? I didn't realize you guys scored 2!" So, tomorrow will be an interesting day. So much to do this weekend. Furniture to move around tomorrow, stuff to take out of the house and get rid of, research to do for English, and to start piecing together the paper. Then on top of that, I have my blog entry, exercise to get in if possible, and to write in my book. *takes a breath* Wow. Will be one hell of a day! I will write more for you all tomorrow.

Thanks for being here!

CB