stumped

I'll be honest, I sat here for about 10 minutes thinking "what should today's title be?" I guess I will contribute my blank mind to being tired. Got ally up at 6:30 this morning for school, and she likes to sit in bed, or just stare off into space for a while. She'd be late every day if we didnt push her to get ready. Honestly? It sucks in a way because I dont want to always be the one to wake her up, but it seems like thats how it is currently again. I say "again" because back in clinton, it was like that all the time, then when we moved here before I started truck driving, i was waking her up, but then when I'd come home for home time, I was surprised and happy because erin got her up when I was home. I was concerned that I would have to do it all the time again. It could be that I'm between jobs right now until I start with sneider, but still, it still sucks, especially this morning.

Lately, I get ally out the door headed down to the bus by 7, and then I go back upstairs and go back to bed for a few hours. This morning though, ally kept procrastinating, like, did the sit and stare in her room for a few minutes, but I went in and was like "ally, cmon, lets go, you gotta get up and get ready." Then she went to the bathroom, and I looked at the time and went "ally, you're not dressed yet, and its almost 10 minutes till 7." She was like "oh crap! 10 till 7?" She hurried and got out of the bathroom really quick. I went downstairs and got a bowl of cereal ready for her, and she walked around the house with the bowl because she was looking for a shoe she wanted. It came 7am, and she still wasnt quite ready. by like, 7:02 or so, she was trying to chat, and i was like "lex, its almost 7:04, and your bus will be here and leaving any minute now, you have to go!" So she went out the door and started to walk and she was like "dad you might want to start the car because the bus is down there!" I was like "then you better run!"

So, she ended up coming back because she missed the bus. So, I ended up having to run upstairs and get dressed and drive her to school. By the time i got back because of traffic, it was close to 8AM. By that point, i thought "no point in going back to bed now." If it were just me in the house, I would have, but since I'm with Zoe during the day right now, I figured there was no point. But of course, because of being tired, while I was getting my class assignment typed up turned in, i kept zoning out and staring off into space, and then realizing what i was doing and getting myself back focused again so that I could continue working on my assignment. Thats the same reason why I sat here for a few minutes not sure what my title should be, until I finally just figured stumped sounds good.

So since I got up, I've been watching Supernatural. I would love to go in order and watch it with Erin, which she's watched one or two episodes with me, but she has her own shows she chooses all the time like cooking shows, and greys anatomy *which I dont mind*, among other tv shows she likes to put on. I'm not always a huge fan of the same shows, but its nice to have time together, so I watch what she wants to watch most of the time. Its all good. I guess when I'm out on the road for 6 days at a time before being home for 3, I might have occasions where I can watch netflix on my phone. I guess it depends on how busy I am.

So, moving on! The weather is a little bit nicer. Its not cool to the point where you can have the windows open and have a nice draft cooling the house off. Nope, I tried that today. Zoe turned on the ac, but after an hour, I turned it off and tried to open the windows hoping that we could still feel cool inside with the temp outside. Nope, its still warm and humid enough out there that inside, its still not too cool. But the main difference is that its not hot and muggy in the house. Thats an improvement I spose.

So one thing that I wanted to write about today is xanga. About a week ago *which I think i wrote about here*, my xanga blog got shut down, saying that it was shut down because I violated the rules *which I dont believe i did*. I mean, i've found blogs about all sorts of topics on xanga, some sexual, some other types of stuff that might not be suitable for all audiences, etc. Me? I may try to just allow myself to write openly for the most part, and have posted pictures of the fam and stuff, but never anything that someone should consider inappropriate, so when I was shut down, I was very surprised. Every day for the past week, just to check *since xanga never returend my email*, I tried to log onto my xanga site, and I would get the "this user has been shut down because they violated the rules".

Last night, even though I figured it was a waste of time, after I blogged here, I tried my xanga site again and this time my page came up and showed my entries. I thought "da fuq?" So I blogged a small paragraph blog over there basically saying that after being shut down for not doing anything that Im aware of, I feel more secure over here. I mean think about it, when you blog, you put a lot of thought into what you are writing about most times. Yes I will be the first to admit that sometimes I dont really put a lot of thought into what I write, but instead just try to write and write. Its a great way to express yourself. I wish it gave me the release from stress that I would love for it to, but I guess it is better than nothing. At least it helps to let your thoughts spill out with the words that you write. Works especially well if you are pissed about something. If you dont have anyone to talk to about it, or you do but you dont want to drag them down because they might have already had a long day and you dont want to make it worse, writing out your feelings is still a way of "talking about it." We are trying to recommend to Ally that she should write in her diary herself too. I dont think she quite gets it, but we have suggested that if she ever has stuff bothering her, or something on her mind, but she doesnt want to talk about it with anyone, then write it down.

So anyway, what I was saying was that suddenly my xanga site was back on. So I did that short entry basically titling it "that was interesting," and then I went to check out my friend Ashley's blog *if I ever say "Ash" , then that is who I'm talking about*. Well anyway, I checked out Ash's blog, and commented on her latest post, and it popped up "thank you for your comment! Would you like to be a follower? Subscribe and if this person accepts your subscription, you and them will be friends!" This caught my eye, because before I was shut down, she and i were already friends on xanga and were following eachother. I think she still is subscribed to me because I had seen the update about her most recent entry, but after it asked me if i wanted to subscribe to her, I obviously said yes and friend requested her, then went back to my xanga site to check, and my suspitions were confirmed. My friends, my subscriptions, everyone i was following, and all my pictures I had uploaded to my site, were all gone. Every last one. I thought "well that totally sucks." So I posted another short entry about how 1) i hadnt done anything to deserve being shut down *if I did, why would they reopen my account after saying I broke their rules?*, and 2) how although I still had all my entries from the looks of it, my pictures, friens, subscriptions, etc, were gone.

So, yeah, that was interesting. Makes me nervous to keep my blog active over there. I dont want to get quite a few entries done and then have another thing like that happen. In the years that i've had that account, I have never been shut down like that when i havent done anything. Granted, over the past 2 or 3 months, I've been much more active as far as posting blog entries.

So, to close up this entry since my mind is going blank, not too much planned for today. LIke i said, just watching super natural, and zoe is for the most part watching a show in the kid room inbetween periods of drawing in her coloring book. I went ahead and drove erin to work today just in case so I could take zoe, or both girls *depends on the time* to the park. Ally, I'm not sure what time, has soccer practice tonight. When I get post this entry, *which I may edit in a few minutes from my phone to see if i can post the pic from last night when I was getting ready to go upstairs, basically zoe was asleep on the couch, the dog was on the other end of the couch, and between them were the two cats. How often can people say their cats and dogs sleep close together like that? When I was growing up, our cat hated dogs, couldnt stand the site of them, would literally hiss and run away. Our cats though act like they think of the dog as a friend. They're cautious around him because he can be food agressive, but like with the kids and us, as long as you dont make a quick movement, and jump on him, surprising him, and he knows youre there, everything is good. So anyway, like i said, might post a pic on here *so if you see it when you read this, then it was done, if not, then i havent gotten to it yet*, then reheat something for lunch, then make a call per erin's request to schedule both girls for a well child check up, then other than that, maybe the park but i'm not sure.

So, on that note, thank you all for reading *however many of you there are*, and I bid you all good day! God bless!

C