Good day everyone. I hope you all have been doing well. Today Erin didn't have to work until 11 this morning. Zoe was scheduled to go to the daycare today. While they were gone, I figured I would try to get as much sleep as possible. The main reason for it was being scheduled to work tonight. I figured the more sleep I got earlier today, the easier working over night will be.
How do we as individuals keep ourselves motivated as we pursue our dreams and goals? You are all aware that I am slowly working on writing a book. I admit that the last 2 or 3 weeks, I really have not written a whole lot in it. It's not that I have given up on completing it. I will not allow myself to give up. It WILL be completed and published. But it makes me wonder as to why I have had the hardest time getting myself to sit down and work on it. Maybe things will be easier now that I have more time on my off days because of the school semester having come to an end last week. This weekend was my first time in the last 6 months that I did not have to leave the house on multiple days to go to class for an hour at a time. I know, it's not much time away from home, but it was enough of a break that it actually felt like it was a serious chunk in the day.
I can't explain why it felt that way. I'm just glad that it is done and that now I will be resuming classes at home. The book isn't the only thing that has taken a dent as far as how much time I have spent with it. World of Warcraft has too. The last few weeks, probably around the same time that I stopped working on the book as much, I stopped playing WoW too often as well. Do I want to play? Sure! I don't know why I haven't really been playing though. There have even been a few times when I open the game up, and stare at the screen showing both my characters. For a few minutes I will look at the screen and think "Which character should I work on? My priest or my mage?" Then after a few minutes of indecision, I exit out of the game entirely. Wierd I know.
I'm just happy that I have been able to keep coming on and updating my blog, minus the day I completely forgot. Exercise is the other issue. I mentioned that I had been lacking as far as working on my diet and exercising the past week, and that soccer practice last night really had me huffing and puffing. Hell, I might as well have been a smoker. After a brief but very good run afterwards, I started to feel like "maybe I can do this. Maybe I can get out and start getting into a running schedule like I did before I got into the air force." Would it be enough for me to be able to run a mile and a half in 11 1/2 minutes? Hopefully. I'm sure when I'm running that for the civil service test, I will have my stop watch on my watch running so that I can judge how well I'm doing time wise. When I was in the air force and had to run timed tests during tech school, I would time myself, and that way when we got half way down, and were running back to the start/finish line, I knew if I needed to do moments of sprinting to make up for my time. Sometimes I was doing well enough on time that I just kept a good pace and I was ok.
Running around with the soccer players and playing against them as a player in a scrimage is fun. It constantly has me remembering when I was a player on a team as well. Those were the days. I still have the same love for soccer that I have always had. Not just as a player, but it has made me begin remembering moments when I was a referee and had my own crew in Nebraska that went around to tournaments. After we had been at it a while, we mostly were at tournaments where the management actually put us up in hotels and provided meals for us while out at the soccer complexes. Those were the days. I know that I plan to get back into refereeing. The thing I don't know is whether or not I will eventually have another crew formed, or if I will go to tournaments solo, with simply the company of Erin and the girls there to enjoy time away from clinton and just being able to watch their father/husband ref.
So in closing, when we watched buffy earlier, it went into the subject of Willo and how she was so dangerously addicted to magic. Through her addiction, it made her an extremely powerful witch. Her girlfriend Terra, whom she cared for deeply, left her because of how much she was into magic. When it came down to her loved ones getting hurt or leaving her, it made her realize how much she needed to change. She went off the magic fix cold turkey, which was extremely difficult for her. Now we are waiting to see if Terra will come back to her, or if it will be over indefinitely between them. It made me think about how easily things can become addicting. Sometimes it's easy to get over it. Some addictions have life long impacts. WoW, was an addiction for me and my ex back before we divorced. Some days I would even say it was one of the big reasons why we split up. Yes there were problems before, but I guess that was the straw that broke the camel's back. Thankfully, I have noticed that although Erin plays more than I do, she is not addicted. She plays for a while, but then she is doing homework, or watching netflix with us. So I guess the lesson for tonight is to be careful. Things might seem really good, really cool, whatever, and you might even find yourself addicted to them. Sometimes those addictions are healthy, but a lot of them are not. Just be careful. :)
I think that will be all for tonight. I will write more for you all tomorrow.
Thanks for being here.
CB
