Happy Labor Day!

Hello all! Hope you're all doing well. Today has been slightly uneventful. Woke up and took Erin to work, came back here, and layed back down for like an hour. Didnt go to sleep or whatever, but just layed there. It was nice. I wouldnt have minded going to sleep. Heck, when I finally got to bed last night, I had mentioned to erin that since the car has been cooperating lately, that maybe she would be fine to drive to work this morning without me having to get up.

However, when her alarm went off this morning, i had been having a very unusual and slightly disturbing dream, so I thought wtheck and went ahead and drove her to work this morning. Plus I figured, didnt want to let Ally to sleep too late because she officially starts school tomorrow morning! She's so excited *not really*.

So, she has to get her bookbag together and put out an outfit for tomorrow. Then all we have to do in the morning is either walk down with her, or watch her walk to the bus stop just down the street. The school is like, 2 or 3 mile away or so *not too far* Pretty nice school. I never went to middle school myself. I went straight rural school that went all the way to 8th grade, then I started highschool in 9th grade. Other kids though, like ally is doing, went from 5th, to middle school in 6th, 7th, and 8th, and then to high school.

Gah! You know what sucks? Its cool outside yet its too warm inside. Yes it nice to not run the ac, but at the same time, if i'm not in front of a fan, I'm finding myself sweating. Its like, cmon! Thats why i cant wait for the cooler months because its so much easier to warm up than it is to cool down, especially for me because I'm naturally a heater. So, currently, being that today is labor day, lots of places are closed including potential employers, so of course, its been all about putting in applications and playing the waiting game. So, for the time being, i'ms till between jobs. I'm hopeful that it will change soon, being that I am a cdl holder/truck driver, but one thing I did differently with the recent applications was I didnt say a word about jb hunt. I figure, jb hunt saying I was discharged even though i technically didnt work for them, had a negative impact on usa trucking and usx so I figured, they apparently are one of thoes employers that I approach with the mind set of "i didnt really work for them much, so I dont even list them on my resume or experience sheet."

Theres a job back in clinton that is like that, It was called DM Services. Basically it was a call center where you could either be an inbound representative, or an outbound collections, and lucky me, I got hired for collections. When the manager interviewed me, she asked me which one I'd prefer, if I would prefer inbound or outbound, and I actually said "i'd prefer inbound honestly because i'm not really a huge fan of outbound or collections." She then responded with "well I'd like to offer you an outbound collections position." I was like "there's no chance of an inbound position?" She was like "it might be possible down the road, but for now, this is what I'm offering." I was like "well I need a job, so I will accept." That job was fun *sarcasm*. Basically it consisted of calling people one after the other who's accounts were past due, and I was calling to get a payment over the phone, or a promise to pay.

I went through 1 week of training, and then I hit the floor to full force. The first week or two of being on my own wasnt too bad. I think it was kind of like working for metro pcs call center. It seemed great for a little while because I was thinking "commissions!" However, after a little while, approximately 2 weeks, the being cussed at on the phone finally started to bug me, and so I had been applying around to local places, was leaning towards getting a security job, and so I got an interview with Ashford University in their call center, and an interview at the casino for overnight security *more like, overnight monitor watching*. I first had the interview with ashford and I had a good feeling about that one. I really wanted to work there, but they scheduled a 2nd interview. Then I interviewed at the casino, and the guy interviewing me offered me the job unofficially. He basically said that they had to run their checks, and then if everything came back ok, that I would get a call either way.

So by noon the next day, I received a call from the casino, officially offering me the job. I accepted and they scheduled me to come in to fill out the remaining paperwork and schedule orientation. I didnt want to turn the job down, but I really wanted to give ashford a chance to call and hire me. When I came in to fill out the paperwork, I asked if I could take two days before finishing the process and that i wanted to wait to see if I received a phone call. I know now that i should have just taken the position since it came up first, and rolled with it. Who knows where I would have ended up job wise if I worked there. I may or may not have worked for schwans. Their starting pay was like, 9.50 starting with a bump to 11 after 90 days. Not a bad position. Of course, I was trying to work them both an what ended up happening was, I thought I had a job offer set in stone, so I gave my two week notice at DM services, and then it came time to quit, and I didnt get the ashford job, and so I called the casino back again and they decided to go with someone else because the guy that interviewed me was upset that I was still looking. I was like "i just needed two days, but I was accepting your offer." So, then suddenly I had quit my job, and both potential jobs had fallen through, so i was at square one. I guess thats kind of where I'm at now in a way.

Quit CR england to take the job with jb hunt, which fell through, then had two other interested companies, that after hearing i was discharged from orientation, decided they werent going to move forward with me driving for them. Meh, whatever. So I am just pushing forward right now. Not much else that can be done! I just have to trust in God and have faith that everything will be fine. Its hard, because its so much easier to be down when things dont seem to be working out. Its much easier to think "Why?! Why me? Why are things so screwed up?" But that wouldnt solve anything. So, I recently was reading this free book from this pastor, Dr. Tony Evans, called Sacred Sex. You should look him up, hear his sermons, and order your free copy. Basically this book is all about how you should save yourself for marriage, and when you are married, how you should watch how you act, what you look at, etc. Very good info. I'm not going to go into it too much, because I would rather you ordered it for yourself and checked it out. It is 100% free, they ship it to you for free also. Thats why when I saw the post about this on facebook, i thought "there's nothing to lose because I'm not paying anything for it, so i might as well read it."

Small book too, was about 70 pages. I read the last 35 pages today, and then i handed the book to Erin and was like "i've already read it, you should too. :)" I'm not sure if she will, but hey, at least she now has the option. After reading the last of that book by dr tony evans, I read a bit in my bible. After that, logged online on my class and did my bio post. Today is day one of the class. So I have 9 weeks of this class and then my last class to get my associates degree will be a retake of algebra. Not looking forward to that, but maybe I will fight hard because I will know that all i have to do is successfully pass that class in order to have my degree. So close i can almost taste it! Although, if the last class was like my last 4 or 5 classes, I would know that my degree would be a slam dunk, but I dont think its set in stone because I took algebra twice and failed both times, and so I'm hoping I can pass it this time. We'll see! Again, gotta trust and have faith.

So in conclusion, today Erin and I watched the Haunting at Whaley house. That was pretty good. Apparently its a real haunted house. While we were watching, Erin looked them up online on her phone to see that it was in fact real. So other than that, we have to get ally to bed in the next hour or less, and probably zoe too shortly after that. Dont want her to go to bed too early because she then wakes up at like 7 and wants breakfast and erin and i are like "ugh, zoe please go back to bed" and she's like "no the sun's up! its sunny day outside! i need to get my wakeup clothes on!" What can I say? I'm not a morning person. Although while driving for England, yes there were times that I had to get up at OHDarkThirty, being anytime between 1am and 4 am, and would take off for my drive shift. Sooooo, yeah, I'd almost prefer 'that' compared to get up at 7 or 8 am. So on that note, I will call that it for tonight. I hope you all are well! GOd bless! And talk to you again soon!

C

PS: I'm really hoping to be able to work something out with verizon and see if we can delay us being suspended for at least the next few weeks. thats my big worry right now because, although I know we can be ok without the web, I dont want to take a leave of absense from school, and if I cant get online, I'm SOL(that means shit out of luck). So, again, I guess I just gotta trust and have faith that somehow, some way, God willing, that everything will work out. I read something posted by Dr Tony Evans on facebook that basically said, your level of worry and anxiety is the same as your level of, or rather, lack of trust and faith in God. That's so true. Its hard for me though, but I'm trying. Back when I was on the road, in the days of daily oovoo webcam chats with friends and stuff, it was easier for me to not let the negative things worry me to death, but ever since that changed, i have felt more solo on that, and it has been much harder to keep focused.

PSS! Last night after I applied with Marten Trucking, I tried to search online for how I could find out how i could be a civilian truck driver for the government overseas, and I had some issues finding actual sites. I found quite a few postings where people talked about driving over seas, like blogs and what not, but no actual "this company hires civilian government drivers to drive in iraq! Apply now!" So, yeah, nothing has come of that yet. Ash if you make your way to this blog and that worries you, I'm sorry, I dont like the idea either, but you could say I'd do it for the money because of how things are really tight right now and I have to do "something." That reminds me, when I log off here, i have to check and make sure that this blog is open so that people dont "have" to be registered to view. Obviously I'm open to comments and stuff, but hey, right now I have erin as a follower, and melissa as a follower *although melissa and i arent exactly talking anymore*. So, on that note, catch ya'll later!