Post number 91

Hello all. I was about to log off and I thought "I haven't posted in a while." Then when I logged online here, I thought "it's funny though, I technically only have melissa and Erin as followers, so I'm not even sure if anyone else even comes here at all." So, despite that, here goes.

I have been with Securitas working as a Security Officer here at the hospital for almost the past year and a half so far. Things are just rolling along here. We aren't sure whether we will ever have the chance to own the house we live in that is technically owned by my parents, so we are looking around and looking into trying to get a VA home loan. We figure, we have lived in our house for about 3 years now, and there has been no hint from my parents about whether they will ever let us buy the house from them, or if they would want us to just rent permanently from them. Personally, we want to "own." I got into a debate in one of my last classes about whether it's better to rent or own. They said they lost their house and they feel renting is much better because they are not tied down. I said that owning is better because after you own the house, you don't have to make any other payments on it except things like taxes and stuff, but as far as monthly house payments, there would be none. Personally, I like the idea of having "less" monthly payments going out.

I know it's very common to think "that's in the past." Tonight I got curious, and again I did a random search trying to see what I might be able to find out about my ex-wife. Things could be worse, I could live much closer to her, and know people that know her and hear about her constantly. I think I would hate that more, knowing that our marriage failed but hearing about her constantly, so I should be happy that I'm so far away with no contact what so ever with her. I guess my mind just some times drifts and wonders because of all the stuff going on in life. Take work for example. I love my job, but at the same time, lately, I have found my self quite a bit saying outloud to myself, or in a spoken prayer as I drive between north and south campus "Lord please bless us financially. Bless us in the way that will allow us to make the financial decisions that we dream of being able to make." And other times saying "Lord I really need a change for the better. I'm doing my best, but sometimes I feel like even if I do my best, I'm still not going to be able to physically handle the stress I feel regularly with working my overnight schedule, and with thing at home. Please Lord."

Just gotta have faith. It's like the lottery. I don't talk about it to my friends, because everyone will say "oh there's no point. The odds of winning arent very good, so it's a waste of money." But the fact remains that "you can't win if you don't play." So I am constantly saying "it's a matter of IF, not WHEN." I do believe that it will happen, and not just that,but I believe that it will happen very soon. When it will happen, I have no idea. I would love to check my current tickets, which include $5.00 power ball, $5.00 megamillion, and a $20.00 ticket that was drawn on St Patricks day that has 4 1 million dollar winners, and several smaller prizes. I'd love to go check it and be told "you're one of our $1,000,000 winners!" We will see! Keeping my fingers crossed, keeping a positive attitude, and keeping the faith! We could really use the financial blessing of that magnitude right now. We would be home owners in a matter of a week probably, my plan when that financial blessing does take place is to resign my current job, take the family on a very nice vacation, of course set aside bank accounts for the girls college educations, maybe put $30,000 to $50,000 in an IRA for myself and one for Erin as well. I did the math the other day, if we won $1,000,000 and we put $50,000 in an account for each of myself and erin (so I guess $100,000 total), after doubling about 6 times before we each retire, we would each have a bank account with $1,600,000 (or $1.6 million) to live off of when we are retired.

Of course, if we spent our original funds wisely, we could have more than that, but that amount is just with the IRA possibility. So, who knows. I'm just gonna keep pushing forward, working hard, praying to God, keeping the faith, trying to keep things positive, and see when the financial blessings take place, and just go with it.

Other than that, before I close this post out, school is going well. I just started another 9 week term. So far I have completed about 30 credits towards my associates degree. That means I am about half way there. It sounds like my tentative graduation month for my associates will be in December of 2011, so that will be awesome. I'm thinking that I will want to go up there for my physical graduation. Why not right? then again, I'm pretty shy, so it's possible I will freak out and say I should just get sent my degree. I dont know. I think it'd be something I should allow myself to experience, and just go through the actual graduation ceremony, but I'm not sure. I have plenty of time.

Other than that, there are things that Erin and I are planning and working towards that I'm not goin to mention yet. We're keeping a few of our plans on the down low until we finalize any of them so that only people we decide to tell will know what we're doing. Just trying to not say anything till the major decision has officially been made and then we will inform the jobs and the parents/land lords, and such. Anyway, time to call it a night! Talk to you all next time =)