Humidity Sucks!

Hey all. You know something? I think when I had one or two entries at xanga that got like 80 visits in one day, and otherwise on other days i might have had 10 visits, it made coming online on my xanga blog and posting daily very easy because I knew I wasnt for the most part just talking to myself. Here on the other hand, I dont think this blog is looked at too often. I know i'm connected with Erin and Melissa, but for the most part it might as well just be Erin because who knows if melissa and i will ever talk again. Stuff happened in the past apparently where we both were going through a difficult time, and then like, 2 months ago, we started talking again, and then when Ash and I fell out, i noticed that Melissa hadnt been responding to any of my texts for about 2 weeks prior to that, so apparently I pissed her off again or whatever. Who knows. Thats one thing I love about Erin. She and I will talk about things when there are things bothering us.

Thats the way it should be. Where as the way some people now-a-days, when they get upset about something, whether someone did something deliberately or by accident, or didnt do anything at all, sometimes people will just stop talking. I know they say "when you assume, you make an ass out of u and me, which when you put together, spells out the word 'assume'. However, my gut feeling has usually been pretty spot on. I would love to think sometimes that I'm just being negative, but there have been too many times with friends and loss of friends for this or that reason, where we went from talking pretty often, to silence, or just very rare talking, and so I would end up being like "is everything ok? did I do something to upset you or whatever?" and sometimes I will be told "no, we're good." And sometimes it was that we were good, but something eles had pissed them off and they just didnt want to take it out on me or anyone else. Then there have been even more occasions where when I asked about it, they immediately said "no, we're not good," to which I try to find out just what exactly happened that made us not good. The other instance would be when they originally said "no, we're good, dont worry," only to come back hours later or the next day and be like "actually, there is something bothering me."

I have always believed the saying "gut instincts are often correct." I cant say that is true for everyone, but it has definitely been true for me. Some people obviously just worry no matter what, or are constantly asking friends "what did I do wrong?" Where as, I have asked that in the past when things changed pretty drastically like one day we chatted pretty often for the past month, and then suddenly there was silence and non-responsiveness, and so my gut told me "something is up, they are never this quiet unless something is bothering them". So yeah.

So, on a different topic *sorry, I was rambling, but I guess I allow myself to ramble when I write at times because my main goal when I come on here to do a blog entry, is to write and write. Will it all make sense? Probably not. Will it all be puppies and rainbows? Heck no! In fact, depending on if I ever get any other visitors or followers here on blogger, *which i'm sure eventually i might*, well when that happens, i may even piss people off because my opinion on things, or whatever.

So, lets see, let me think of a random topic that I can ramble or rant on about. Lets talk about the current presidential campain going on. Who are you for? Why? What draws you to that candidate? Would you like to know where I stand? Well tough! I'm going to tell you anyway. HA! ;)

So, my views are like this. I actually am a supporter of President Obama. This does not mean that I am not open to someone else as president. In fact, I did like a few of the things that VP Candidate Ryan talked about. For example, I heard he suggested for social security, that instead of the way the government does that currently, which from my understanding, our money comes out of our checks, and goes into an account with the government, an the government borrows against that, so from what i've heard, there is this metaphorical box where our social security should be saved, but instead there are I-OWE-YOU's in there. Now, is this true? I have no idea. Thats one issue I have with these elections is one side tries to bash the other side, and then you have people you know in person, or on facebook that will bash obama for this or whatever, and say he's the cause of this or that, and its all just annoying because other than hearing someone talk about something, or read something that was printed, how can anyone say that something that is said is definitely fact.

I don't think its fair to say that President Obama is the cause of all the current problems we have with the country or government, and yet say that they thought Bush was a great president. Did I support Bush? Yes I did, when he first ran, and I did vote for him when he ran for a 2nd term, but I wasnt as big of a supporter during his 2nd term. More views are, yes there are things like the national debt is a larger amount, and that sucks, and yes its not what President Obama said he would fix. Is that even something that he "Can" fix? I think thats a problem that we all as a country would need to come up with a way and work together to get that debt down. One man, whether he's the leader of the free world, or some common person on the street, one man can not fix a problem like that on his own, but not especially in one term. I think that the president has done other things he said he would do. For example, he has withdrawn troops out of Iraq, and tried to bring some of our troops home. I've heard he has downsized the military, but I don't know if this is fact or not. Like i said, this is something that i see as accusations that is simply that. Show me proof. Not just, "this news paper said this" or "this person said that" or "i've heard this." If you cant proof to me what you are claiming, then dont bother.

Its just like movie reviews! *lol* yes I'm rambling and i've just taken a fork in the road. You know when you come to a fork, you go on a straight road and you come to a point where it will either go left, or right? Well, thats what I have just done. I was going down the path of political argument, and I just forked off a different direction to talk about movie reviews. Have you ever wanted to go see a movie, but someone else either saw it, or they read the review about the movie like, 2 thumbs down or whatever, and so they told you "dont waste your money, i heard it got bad reviews" or "I saw that and I thought it was really bad," yet you saw the ads for it, and you thought it looked like it'd be a really good movie, and you really wanted to see it, yet now after they told you what they heard, or what they thought, suddenly you were thinking about whether you really wanted to go see it? Well, from personal experience, I have never let other's opinions about movies I wanted to see make me not want to see it.

I figure, you are your best judge of whether you will like something or not, so the way I think about it is this. So what if it got bad reviews, or so what if a friend of yours didnt like it. So what if they heard it was horribly shot. If you wanted to see it before you talked to them, then you should still go see the movie! Cmon now! Its like restaurants! *hahah! yup, another fork, no pun intended*. I have restaurants that I love, and some people I have known, thought those same restaurants were crap. Or I've decided to try out restaurants even though others said that they were not very good. Sometimes I ended up thinking that the restaurant was really good. Other times I found out that the advice of my friends was accurate. One example was when I was working for Schwans in Iowa. I had one day on my route that I was in the town where I lived. On that day, sometimes me and the other drivers that were all in clinton that day would call eachother and try to arrange to meet up for lunch. There was this new restaurant that had opened up, called DJ's Rib Shack. I had never eaten there, but one of the days I was in clinton, my co-worker, Larry, called and said he wanted to try the rib shack. I was like "i'll try anything once," and so we went there.

It was me, him, and another schwans man, and larry got bbq ribs, and he thought the restaurant was he thought it was the greatest. I ordered fried catfish, thinking "fillet" or something like that. Nope, I got a whole freakin cat fish, head and all, that had literally been fried. When they put the plate in front of me, I went "you're shitting me right?" Larry was like "what you've never had it like that?" I was like "noooooo. I mean, with the head not even cut off?" I couldnt eat it. I literally went up to the counter, paid for my meal, and left. I went down the street to caseys and got 2 slices of pizza. I could have very easily refused to pay for my meal since it was completely unusual compared to what I was thinking it would be. But, I did the right thing i think by paying for it.

But on the flip side, so there was the rib shack which I hated, and Larry loved. The next time through clinton, he called and asked where I wanted to go to eat and I said lets go to the Riverside Restaurant. Erin and the girls met me there, and larry then met us there. We all enjoyed our meals except Larry. Me, erin, and the girls ordered regular meals, and Larry must have thought that because he was over 60, that he should order off the "senior" section. But when he did, when we left, he said he would never go there again because he felt like there was hardly anything in his meal. I was like "well you got the senior meal, those are smaller, what did you expect?" LOL! So, that is another point, that some people will have their opinion about things like that, like restaurants, types of food in general, movies, or presidential candidates, and it is up for each one of us to make the best decision we can, not based off of what others say or think, but off of what we have been able to find out about the issues or whatever.

So, in conclusion, today was ally's first day of school, and from what she told us, it went well. Got her up this morning, walked down to the bus stop with her, then came back right after, and went back to bed. Erin got up and headed to work *i was tired and figured I would just let her go ahead and drive today since the car has been cooperating* Zoe came in eventually and she went back to sleep laying beside me, and every half hour for about 2 hours, she would wake up and wake me up, and finally i was like "why dont you go put a movie on in the kid room?" and she did. Every so often, she would come up and wake me up or whatever. I couldnt help it, and I couldnt explain it. I just, was wiped out, and didnt want to get up. Every time I woke up it was the feeling of "ohhh man.. gawd i'm so tired! I just want to go back to sleep!" Probably by like 10:45 or so, she had come up again, and I forced myself to get up. I didnt "want" to, get up, but I forced myself to get up. I'm not sure what it is. Obviously, even though I've been home since leaving england, I havent exactly been "on vacation." I wish. When we can afford to, that'll be really nice, go somewhere for two weeks and not have to wake up at a specific time, and just take it easy an relax. Thats like when we went to chicago, only that trip wasnt long enough. Was a really nice 4 day weekend, and we had a blast, but like i said, wasnt long enough. It flew by way too fast. So, to close this entry out, what do I plan for and look forward to? A family vacation! Of course that will be after we get all our finances in order. Thats the sad thing is even as a truck driver, it wasnt like a vacation although I was in new places all the time. The problem was, yes i was there, but I was working, and plus it wasnt like i could afford to do anything for fun most times, so yeah, we need a REAL vacation. ;) So on that note, hope you guys are all having a good night. Talk to you again soon, God bless!

C